February 2012
so i've been thinking about it
and you know what? fuck society. fuck being so thin clothes don’t actually fit. fuck it. i should enjoy my teenage years without feeling guilty for everything i put into my mouth. I want to enjoy food, not fear it. so starting now i am simply eating healthily. raw food, whole food, clean and lean food. I will be thin, but I will also be healthy. and i will be alive and well.
that is all.
Oh my god I just looked in the mirror at my gym and I am absolutely huge. I want to cry.
Anonymously message me exactly what type of person...
Teacher: A long time ago people thought there were only four elements. Can anyone guess what they were?
Me: Water. Earth. Fire. Air. Long ago, the four nations lived together in harmony. Then everything changed when the Fire Nation attacked. Only the Avatar, master of all four elements, could stop them, but when the world needed him most, he vanished.
Teacher:
Me:
teacher: what?
Me: what?
doing the lemon detox for five days, but
only because my mum won’t let me do it for any longer. which is fine i guess. hoping to look like clemency poesy by the end of it, but seriously, i doubt it. (ps, if i start having random rants on here, just tell me to shut up and i will)
i just feel so disappointed
in myself, in friends and in my family. Mostly myself, simply because i don’t have any particular talent in school, and i’m not skinny enough, and i don’t look like how i wish i did, and that really just kills me. i am also disappointed in myself because i have such low self esteem. which really doesn’t help the situation. and i’m sick. and i keep bursting into tears...
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bored
1. had sex?
2. bought condoms?
3. gotten pregnant?
4. failed a class?
5. kissed a boy?
6. kissed a girl?
7. used a little paper bag for lunch?
8. had a job?
9. slipped on ice?
10. missed the school bus?
11. left the house without my wallet?
12. bullied someone on the internet?
13. sexted?
14. had sex in public?
15. played on a sports team?
16. smoked weed?
17. smoked cigarettes?
18. smoked a cigar?
19. drank alcohol? .
20. watched “The Breakfast Club”?
21. been overweight?
22. been underweight?
23. had an eating disorder?
24. been to a wedding?
25. made fun of someone for being fat?
26. been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
27. watched tv for 5 hours straight?
28. been late for work?
29. been late for school?
30. kissed in the rain?
31. showered with someone else?
32. failed my drivers test?
33. ran a mile in less than 10 minutes?
34. been outside my home country?
35. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours?
36. had lice?
37. gotten my heart broken?
38. had a credit card?
39. been to a professional sports game?
40. broken a bone?
41. been unhappy about my weight?
42. won a trophy?
43. cut myself?
44. had an STD?
45. got engaged?
46. been on a diet?
47. tried out to be on a tv show?
48. rode in a taxi?
49. been to prom?
50. played a drinking game?
51. stayed up for 24 hours or more?
52. been to a concert?
53. had a three-some?
54. had a crush on someone of the same sex?
55. been in a car accident?
56. had braces?
57. learned another language?
58. killed an animal?
59. been at a yard sale?
60. been to a japanese steakhouse?
61. wore make up?
62. talked to someone via webcam?
63. lost my virginity before I was 16?
64. had my wisdom teeth taken out?
65. kissed someone a different race than myself?
66. snuck out of the house?
67. bought porn?
68. had a virus on my computer?
69. had oral sex?
70. dyed my hair?
71. gone skinny dipping?
72. graduated from college?
73. wore someone else’s clothes?
74. voted in a presidential election?
75. rode in an ambulance?
76. rode in a helicopter?
77. caught the stove on fire?
78. got in a verbal fight?
79. met someone famous?
80. been on vacation?
82. been on a boat?
81. been on an airplane?
83. broken something expensive?
84. had surgery?
85. kissed someone before I was 14?
86. beat a video game?
87. found something valuable on the ground?
88. made a survey?
89. stalked someone on a social network?
90. prank called someone?
92. spent over $100 shopping in one day?
91. been to a library outside of school?
93. cut my hair and hated it?
94. peed outside?
95. went fishing?
96. helped with charity?
97. taken a pregnancy test?
98. been rejected by a crush?
99. been suspended from school?
100.broken a mirror?
i wish i was more attractive. but in a masculine/feminine kind of way. you know, brogues with a skirt, a blazer with skinny jeans. a messy bob with a hair barrette. that kind of idea.
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